Broken Hallelujah - A Playlist
I didn’t sleep well last night (as occasionally happens when my brain decides to throw a late-night processing party). This time my mind was sifting through various experiences and songs—songs that ultimately ended up becoming a soundtrack that helped get through some tough times.
This iTunes playlist has been a distinctly healing/comforting soundtrack to me over the last 5 years, so I wanted to share it with you, in case a song or two in it speaks to you. As time marched forward, these songs spoke to the stickiest, most sensitive, parts of my heart as I processed relationships, life, work, and continually felt my way toward the unknown future. They still speak to me. And help me sleep.
Everyone feels the 14th of February hit a little differently. While I have always genuinely loved Valentine’s Day (with or without a partner-in-crime) there have been other days, weeks, or months that I haven’t loved--to say the least.
I can’t count the number of times I’ve listened to these songs over the last handful of years—curled up in grief on my bed, eyes red from crying in the bathroom, listening alone my car, or walking in the mountains. Even when my body shook with exhaustion from sobbing so hard that I could barely breathe, these songs expressed many of my own feelings, pain, questions, and hopes. I felt God in them. And I felt like some of my heart, pain, and hopes had been acknowledged—witnessed in some way.
Today I decided to add two additional songs for you though. “You Say” (by Lauren Daigle) has been a powerful one for me lately. And—in sort of a musical Valentine hug—I wanted to leave you with a piece of my own “broken hallelujah” (“Fix You”). It’s my parting thought.
This day is all about love. Along with love from friends and family—I hope you feel God’s love a little more tangibly (and my love too). <3
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